life

ok so im new to blogging but whatever i write shit on my computer all the time how could this be any different. Life its so f***in confusing i cant seem to get my head straight. one minute i gotta go up the next im swirling down... grr where the hell is that life preserver so many people already found. did i miss it. honest to god.. i know they say that not every one you look at who seems happy is truly but dammit when you look at me dont you know shit is fucked up... and honestly do i care bout the shit the wanna be barbie is going threw. i mean isnt it so hard to pick which color your new Mercedes should be. i know i know every one goes through hard ships in life but you know what... "i fear being happy because every time im happy something bad always happens" -charlie brown. why is one of the most Innocent shows of our child hood so damn right.... off topic but why the hell are there like 5million different charlie brown (peanuts w/e) now.. for real its like every 3 mths theres a show on to celebrate something (next in progress"happy dingus day charlie brown" my idea first) i thought that guy died why are they suddenly pumping out these productions like wild fire... or do i just pay that lil attention? who knows back to life. 7 why is 7 the defining number of my life lately? And where the hell am i gunna get 1,800 dollars in a matter of weeks.... craigslist isnt working.. maybe i just need to put an add in another sections lol (erotic services) hah! that wouldnt get me any money either...... grr life i hate when it doesnt make since and im terrified when it does.