shopping and kids

sooo i am watching the kids today and my sis in law is driving my car... i told her i will kill her if she hurts it....and i really mean it lol... my parents will be here a lil over a week from now.... crazy.. to day is my mother in laws 60th bday holy old lol sorry but its pretty old... soo i worked out yesterday and ive been running every where today...does that count? idk but i am already tired wtf! i am making dinner for the kids yay! not.... i really need to lose weight.... fuck!! oh well fun times ahead i have to grocery shop later tonight yay yay yay.... watch me as i try to avoid the h1n1 flu!! lmfao

thats it

ok thats it have to lose weight this is no joke and i mean it this time... i am so sick of being sick and i am so sick of being sick with my self... soo please help me kick my ass in gear i have to lose weight... i want another baby and i dont want diabetes i dont want heart deceases i want to be there for my daughter i want to have energy i want to feel good to feel sexy again..... i hate being this sad and down bout my self IT HAS TO CHANGE NOW!! im the heaviest i have ever been at 270lbs and i cant take it i am ridiculously obese and i dont need any one to be nice to me about it any more i am un healthy and its not pretty thats it life style change starts now!!!! ill keep you updated ... im gunna need to vent in here sooo...... sorry if i get annoying

swin flu and inlaws

ok so im starting to get a lil paranoid over this stupid swine flu....sorry h1n1 flu (ha) every time some one mentions being sick, or they cough around me i am ready to grab lysol and hand sanatizer and spray down every thing and every one around me..... is it that big of deal... maybe... i just hate being sick and worse i dont want my daughter getting sick....
*the economy claims another victim*
thats right folk we have yet another victim of todays economy, who will stop the madness. So my sister is going threw a...how shell i put this... she might lose her house i guess thats the best way to put it.. i cant blame her for being worried (hello i got a thing in the mail that said my husbands wage might be garnished and i went straight to, "lets hope your mother will let us live with her cuz we r going to be out on our ass") so i really cant blame her at the same time i can understand how she'd want to just give it back, when something gives you that much hell you wonder if its really worth it... bottom line we've all got to remember the basics of life... just like in the great depression.. so long as we have a safe warm place to stay and love for one another, life will still go on... even if it means giving up all our comforts lets all take comfort in one another.. ok sorry to get all preachy on you but thats truly how i feel. at the end of it all the only things i need in life is my family and a warm safe place (with food) and we can make it a home just so long as we stick together.
So this weekend is suppose to me my mother in law surprise party but as always thing can not go smoothly and i am waiting to hear the out come of how this week end will go... i need more money lol! grrr

blah

today is such a blah day! its rainy cold and windy outside, what happened to the 80 degrees i want it back... not 50 what the ...grr... the fish is dieing, they never live that long. although my other fish is a year older then the one thats dieing and shes fine... idk. kaylynn is not listening today shes trying to torture the poor dog. I have to do dishes and honestly id rather just throw them all out lol! but my husband says no... damn... i miss my hubby, he works to much! but he's a great provider so i guess i really cant complain to much.. cant wait in a few weeks he will be on vacation, never mind that my parents will be here but at least ill have him!!! kaylynn is getting so big. sometimes it just really surprises me to think back on what she was doing a year ago and then to see her now its crazy! i want another one! but i have to wait and i am fine with that. Paul has to call the lawyer hope all this crap just get figured out, im soo sick of stressing over it, just not worth it any more. well im done rambling and bitching i guess ill go do dishes... blah....

this weekend

this weekend was interesting. lol saturday was such a nice warm day. dropped the kid off at her aunts and headed to the stadium for the draft party. Got lost had to ask for directions (yes my husband actually asked for directions, he has no pride lol jk) finally got there, perfect timing because we didnt have to wait in line like some other people. they were bitching about being there for 2hrs waiting in line (dumb ass didnt even start till 3 lol we got there at 3:30 people have no brains just sad) sooo we did pretty good as far as the draft went. we got to sit on the field, went to our seats for the season (not a bad view at all) got to see brian mormin so that was kewl... oh and tasker was there but who hasnt met him lol......oooohhh there was one really stupid .... i cant continue it gets to violent.....any way there was this guy there who was wearing a tom brady jersey... i really think im going to have to be sedated before the new england game, because just seeing this guy made my blood boil and i really had to control myself so i wouldnt go punch the idiot... grrr i know its football but brady pisses me off.... grrr... lets see after the draft party we went to walmart what fun lol my hubby had to check his schedule after that we went to apple bees gotta drink and an appetizer (last time i do that...so not worth 10buck what the hell) then went to d&b grabbed another drink and watched the last part of the draft... then we picked up with kid and came home....went to bed.... sunday we wanted to go to the bisons game but a series of ridicules events kept us from going later we kind of regretted our decisions till we saw that the bisons lost 4-0 sooooo kinda glad i didnt waist my time...and now today is 80 somethin degrees and im in doors wtf... lol its mad windy out there to. and my house is being invaded by bees what the fuck!!! well that pretty much it.....

warm warm weather and hottie trent edwards

ok so it is amazingly beautiful out side and i love it! nothing makes me wanna run naked like warm weather... wait what does that have to do with any thing HAHA thats kinda a scary thought tho lol. well i think i might have gotten a handle on my thoughts... or not... who knows lol. my family will be here next month and i am soooo happy! just hope i have enough patience and money ... i cant wait to drink with my fav sis and sis inlaw shh dont tell lol a girls night out with two of the greatest funniest chicks i know... priceless.... hell we dont need alchol were crazy enough on our own... but the booze is nice. can not wait.. my bday is like 3mths away (holy shit) and i have this nagging feeling im getting old. i know im not "old" im just realizing that im truly growing up and some times it scares the shit outta me. other times i think i will forever be my crazy messed up inmature laughing at people who fall self... and god i hope i am.. lol honestly what is the point of living if you cant laugh...even if you are laughing at ...well.... every thing.. including yourself. it just makes life easier....sometimes.. ohh tomorrow i get to go to ralph wilson stadium (its where the bills play) and watch the draft... plus we might get to meet/hang out with some of the players... ooohhh i hope trent edwards is there lol... hey hes my get outta marriage free card... lol im smart i pick local people!! haha like that with ever happen im so viginal im surprised i have a kid! lol ok well i shell go enjoy the fantasic weather before we get snow again... lmfao just kidding dont kill me lol

why wont she just shut up!?!QnA

ok so my kid will not shut up shes not happy with any thing and this does not help my increasingly worse migraine grrrr. ok so every thing went pretty well yesterday! the dr is an idiot. how is that that a person can go to school for 10 yrs and still be a complete idiot... i dont get it. And why do i have to pay for the secound hour in a parking gargage when ive only been there 65min GRRR! i hate downtown yet i love big citys i will never make sence now even to myself lol i wish i didnt kill my dreams, some times i long for them.... oh well past is past and future is full of diapers lol.. oh well...lunch... i have to get luch for my kid, am i way to random? probably! does any one care? well i dont care lol! thought of the day what is beauty?

yesterday (4-22-09)

ahhh yesterday... what a long crazy day! well kaylynns dr apt went very well she got her last shot till shes 4 so YAY! my dr apt, well as always they have no fucking clue what is wrong with me, but some one will contact me when they know more... yay.. jen's court date did not go so well.... grr stupid ass fucking law garudians bitch needs a good beaten lol! ok sorry thats a lil to much isnt it... mmmmm no i think that'll work. today kaylynn has an apt with the specailist yay then i have to clean my house NOOOOO!!!!! saturday is the draft baby and ill be spending it at the ralph!!!

junk

ok so i guess im like a blogging machine today dont really know why just really feel like typing. its kinda nice to get the thoughts outta my head for once and writing .... well that just takes way to long. so tomorrow i have a dr apt and i nervous about the out come. not that it should really be that big of deal but it has the potential to be...well huge... my husband is stuck at work and this pisses me off cuz i had plans for tonight and my child has 3 teeth coming in all at once and mother nature desided to grace me with allergy that are causing one major head ache. moral of the story my house is my own personal hell at the moment. but that should be no surprise. the fairy doesn't drop here fairy dust my way all that often its ok im getting use to it. grr i hate when a song gets so stuck in your head you just wanna ripe it out your ears... i think my kid is sleeping which has potential to be horrible....its 5:30 she sleeps an hour aint no way im getting her back to sleep before 11...but shes just so damn cranky.... kids i love them when they're not screaming...and dont act like you dont feel the same...

life

ok so im new to blogging but whatever i write shit on my computer all the time how could this be any different. Life its so f***in confusing i cant seem to get my head straight. one minute i gotta go up the next im swirling down... grr where the hell is that life preserver so many people already found. did i miss it. honest to god.. i know they say that not every one you look at who seems happy is truly but dammit when you look at me dont you know shit is fucked up... and honestly do i care bout the shit the wanna be barbie is going threw. i mean isnt it so hard to pick which color your new Mercedes should be. i know i know every one goes through hard ships in life but you know what... "i fear being happy because every time im happy something bad always happens" -charlie brown. why is one of the most Innocent shows of our child hood so damn right.... off topic but why the hell are there like 5million different charlie brown (peanuts w/e) now.. for real its like every 3 mths theres a show on to celebrate something (next in progress"happy dingus day charlie brown" my idea first) i thought that guy died why are they suddenly pumping out these productions like wild fire... or do i just pay that lil attention? who knows back to life. 7 why is 7 the defining number of my life lately? And where the hell am i gunna get 1,800 dollars in a matter of weeks.... craigslist isnt working.. maybe i just need to put an add in another sections lol (erotic services) hah! that wouldnt get me any money either...... grr life i hate when it doesnt make since and im terrified when it does.