cant take it

i cant take it any more ...... every time i think life is going up it falls right back down. ive got very few options left... holding out hope on the goodness of the world and we all know thats not sure bet these days. just really dont understand it. how can something like this happen??? how can people just turn their backs and pretend like nothing happen HOW DO YOU SLEEP AT NIGHT??? HOW?? i dont think i could live with myself if i fucked some one over this bad..... just dont get it... really hoping something will work out... knowing that some how it has to but i have no f*in clue how....or when.....or whats going to happen... i hate not having one freaking ounce of control over my fate its just ridiculous... i know i cant always have control but dammit this is just ......AHHHH cant take it... at the breaking point....im done....im done playing nice...im done trying to hold it all together... im coming apart at the seems and its only a matter of time before this whole thing i call life officially just unravels and falls to complete pieces......